(A prayer for anyone dealing with harmful, intrusive, and/or dangerous thoughts.)
Dear Lord, I don’t know what to do right now.
I keep thinking these tormenting thoughts, and they won’t go away no matter what I do. I never thought it would get this bad.
Every time I turn around, I can’t escape this darkness. Every time I mess up, I can’t escape these feelings of self-hate and hurting myself. Every night in my bed before I fall asleep is miserable. Help me, be with me, and remind me of your word.
I’ve lost hope in myself, in my life, and in you sadly. Help me regain that hope.
Help me to know that you do care about me. I can’t feel you like I used to.
Even though the devil repeats to me, “God will not help you, he doesn’t care about you.”, I will trust that you do because you formed me yourself.
You brought me to life yourself.
You raised me and provided for me all my life yourself.
You were there for me yourself, when no one else was.
You love life, and you love me. Why wouldn’t you care when I feel like I don’t want to live anymore?
It’s you that provides the breath in my lungs every three seconds.
It’s you that keeps me going every day.
You love me.
You are the answer, you will save me and you promise that in your word.
You have died a miserable death and raised from the grave to save me from this death. You were mocked and beaten for me.
You knew that even though what you went through was excruciatingly painful, you still did it out of love for me and my life.
You said, “this person is worth it.” You saved me from the misery and darkness that is overwhelming me right now.
You provided an eternity for me in heaven with you.
You are stronger than depression. You are stronger than hopelessness. You are stronger than death! Please save me.
I submit my life to you God, and I resist the devil in Jesus name, and I know he will flee me now (James 4:7).
God, I know that in order for this to get better I have to trust and submit to you, and also forgive myself.
I have to love myself because you love me and have given me your son in death to forgive me.
So today I forgive myself and have grace on myself.
Even though I am weak, you are strong.
Even though I’m not good enough, you fill me with your strength and your goodness.
Even though I’ve lost all joy, you will give me your joy that is unlike any other kind of joy!
Even though I’m scared, you will give me your peace that surpasses all understanding!
I love you God, and I submit to you. I forgive myself. Thank you for my life today. I thank you for all that I have.
I know that you will save me. I love you, and I rebuke the devil in Jesus name.
In Jesus name I pray, amen.
I hope this encouraged you, and if you are currently struggling I’d love to chat with you and pray for you! Below are some verses that have helped me on my journey with this, and really picked me up when I was down. I recommend writing these down on a sticky note, battle card, or journal!
“Now may the Lord of peace himself give you peace at all times in every way. The Lord be with you all.” - 2 Thessalonians 3:16
Verses to meditate on
“Submit yourselves therefore to God. Resist the devil, and he will flee you.” - James 4:7
“but God shows his love for us in that while we were still sinners, Christ died for us.”
- Romans 5:8
“The Lord will fight for you, you only need to be still.” - Exodus 14:14
“I am the vine, and you are the branches. Those who remain in me, and I in them, will bear much fruit; for you can do nothing without me.” - John 15:5
“I have been crucified with Christ. It is no longer I who live, but Christ who lives in me. And the life I now live in the flesh I live by faith in the Son of God, who loved me and gave himself for me.” - Galatians 2:20
“And I will be to her a wall of fire all around, declares the Lord, and I will be a glory in her midst.” - Zechariah 2:5
“The light shines in the darkness, and the darkness will not overcome it.” - John 1:5
“Return to your rest, my soul, for the Lord has been good to you. For you, Lord, have delivered me from death, my eyes from tears, my feet from stumbling, that I may walk in the way of the Lord in the land of the living.” - Psalm 116: 7-9
“Come to me, all who are weary and heavy laden, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you, and learn from me; for I am meek and lowly at heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy, and my burden is light.” - Matthew 11:28-30